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Mar 21 2012

#Autism, Seizures and EEG’s: Gavin

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Sorry for the delay is getting this up but I fell asleep early last night.. :-)

I already shared what happened with the neurologist,  as far as Elliott is concerned.  What I haven’t done yet is getting into what went down with Gavin.
Traditionally,  Gavin is significantly more complex and honestly,  that an understatement.  I’m gonna keep this short and sweet because I’m just super tired today and the words are blending together.

Basically,  Gavin tolerated the exam very well.  They spent a lot of time on Gavin’s reflexes,  or rather,  trying to find them.

The doctor took me back to his office and actually showed me the EEG results for Gavin as well. Gavin is clearly having seizures and for the life of me,  I can’t remember the name of them.  These are more background seizures.  Let me give you an example of what I mean.  In this example,  Gavin will be saying the alphabet.

Basically, Gavin experiences things  like this,  A, B, C, D, E, F…………..G, H, I, J, K, L, M, N, O, P……….. Q, R, S, T, U, V, W, X, Y, Z.

Gavin’s seizures seem to be more like someone hits the pause button. He essentially freezes for short period of time and them picks up where he left off,having no memory of the pause.

These episodes were triggered by hyperventilation, flashing lights and sleep. This might explain the bedwetting as well.  Of course,  I forgot to mention that yesterday though. In Gavin’s case,  it’s pretty clear cut. The reason is hasn’t been picked up until now is likely because Gavin’s seizures don’t present with any obvious symptoms.

Gavin seems to zone out at times but we he also gets lost in what he’s doing as well,  so it’s tough to tell the difference.

The reason we are seeing more problems lately is that Gavin was on Depacote for a really long time.  This was used for management of his bipolar symptoms,  but was likely treating the seizures as well.

They all want to do extensive genetic testing as well. There are specific disorders that were mentioned that I can’t remember.

We restart Depacote tonight and hope that will help to control his seizures.  Now that we know what we are looking for,  we’ll have to keep a closer eye on him.

I don’t even know to say anymore. I’m so far beyond overwhelmed that I don’t know what to even say….. :-(


Posted from WordPress for Android so please forgive any typos as auto-correct and I don’t see eye to eye. :-)

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Nov 10 2011

Confessions of a depressed, special needs father

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Hello again.

I wanted to take a few minutes and share some more private things that I think are important. The reason I want to continue sharing this is because I don’t think there is anything to be ashamed of and I want to help combat the stigma associated with depression.

So here goes nothing :-) Oh…and in case your interested in reading some of my past Confession posts look here.

I have been battling with depression for many years now…on and off. I was actually doing quite well and was off antidepressants for most of this year.

However, I began to struggle a few months ago. I became very….. preoccupied with my own morality and what would happen to my kids if something happened to me. Preoccupied is really an understatement, I was obsessed with my own mortality. I couldn’t stop worrying about my children’s future. I began fixating on things like freckles and would convince myself it was something like skin cancer. I knew that it wasn’t, but I couldn’t help the feeling of impending doom. I literally felt like I was going to die.

I realize what triggered this. Back in Feb of this year, I had an experience that I think, quite literally broke me and set in motion my little downward spiral.  You can read about that here.

I would go through periods of time where I was able to find my footing and begin to move forward again but then something would come along and yank the rug out from underneath me.

I found that as my life became more stressful, I began to decompensate  at a faster rate. I found it harder and harder to find my footing anymore. I felt that in most cases I was able to suffer in silence, meaning that I could still function but I was tormented by these thoughts and fears. Truth be told, I wasn’t compensating nearly as well I thought I had been. I was overwhelmed and constantly looking for reassurance that I wasn’t dying. I guess I hadn’t really noticed this because I was to wrapped up in the struggle to realize I was driving Lizze crazy.

I was still managing to pull everything off that needed to be done but I was beginning to drag everyone else down. Eventually, I realized that I could no longer manage on my own. I sat down with Lizze and told her that I wanted to get back on medication. I felt that it had become necessary for me to bump myself up the priority list and get help. Lizze was very supportive as usual and I got in to see my doctor.

In some weird, irrational way, I thought I would be letting my family down by getting back on antidepressants. I felt that with Lizze being so heavily medicated all the time for all of her health issues that I needed to be unmedicated to make sure that I was able to care for everyone. Noble intentions? Yes. Misguided? Absolutely. So, I have been on Paxil for about 4 months now. Things are going better and I’m no longer tormented by cyclical thinking, meaning I have been able to move passed the obsession thinking and worrying.

As things are becoming more and more stressful, I thought it would be good to talk to my doctor again. We decided to bump up the dosage and see how that helps. I think it will have a positive impact, especially going into the holidays and with all the associated stress.I hate the idea of being on medications again, but I’m so glad I made the decision to do so. My family deserved a better me and hopefully, that’s what they now have. :-)

If you feel like you may be suffering from depression, please get help. There is nothing to be ashamed of.

For more information on depression please visit the Mayo Clinic website.

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Nov 06 2011

Is it over yet?

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Emmett’s on a roll today.  I love him dearly,  but am so grateful it’s bedtime.  So far today he has pee’d on the carpet (for seemily no reason),  flushed cardboard toilet paper rolls down the toilet,  clogged the sink by stuffing toilet paper down the drain and ended the day by flushing Elliott jumbo sized pen down the toilet as well.

Apparently, the toilet paper rolls were lonely or something. 

All of this only accounts for the bathroom and plumbing related issues today. 

He assaulted Lizze at least twice,  scratched Elliott’s neck and jumped on Gavin’s face,  giving him a bloody lip.

To say that Lizze and I are exhausted would be an understatement.  Plus,  someone thought it would be a good idea to have no school on Monday.   

How was everyone else’s day?  Please feel free to share….  ;-)

– Lost and Tired

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Oct 01 2011

Nightmares

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I think in pretty darn frustrated with Gavin.  Gavin decided that it would be a good idea to tell Elliott some horror stories before they went to bed tonight. 

These stories involved zombies,  decapitated people,  and a few other grossly inappropriate things.

Elliott comes downstairs to let me know why Gavin was telling him.  I call for Gavin very calmly,  even though I’m actually pretty ticked off at this point. 

The moment he hits the stairs it’s an instant meltdown and drama ensues.

I wanted to know why he would say these things to his little brother again.  I say again,  because this has been an issue before and it had to be dealt with then and clearly we’re gonna have to do this again.

Gavin goes to bed and I’m left with a really nervous/anxious 5 year old who is afraid to sleep alone now.

Guess Who’s in the couch tonight.  ;-(

Gavin is driving me absolutely crazy today.  I don’t know what’s going on with him but to say he is struggling would be an understatement,  as would saying that I was merely frustrated.

Tomorrow is a new day and brings along with it a clean slate.  I just need to locate my reserve of patience and I’ll be ok….I think.

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– Lost and Tired

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Oct 01 2011

Nightmares

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I think in pretty darn frustrated with Gavin.  Gavin decided that it would be a good idea to tell Elliott some horror stories before they went to bed tonight. 

These stories involved zombies,  decapitated people,  and a few other grossly inappropriate things.

Elliott comes downstairs to let me know why Gavin was telling him.  I call for Gavin very calmly,  even though I’m actually pretty ticked off at this point. 

The moment he hits the stairs it’s an instant meltdown and drama ensues.

I wanted to know why he would say these things to his little brother again.  I say again,  because this has been an issue before and it had to be dealt with then and clearly we’re gonna have to do this again.

Gavin goes to bed and I’m left with a really nervous/anxious 5 year old who is afraid to sleep alone now.

Guess Who’s in the couch tonight.  ;-(

Gavin is driving me absolutely crazy today.  I don’t know what’s going on with him but to say he is struggling would be an understatement,  as would saying that I was merely frustrated.

Tomorrow is a new day and brings along with it a clean slate.  I just need to locate my reserve of patience and I’ll be ok….I think.

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– Lost and Tired

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Jul 25 2011

The CDD Journey: Very Concerning News

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Childhood disintegrative disorder: Very Concerning News

 

I’m going to keep this short as I’m completely drained at the moment. As you are probably aware, we were at the Cleveland Clinic this afternoon in order to get an evaluation for childhood disintegrative disorder. If you new and need to get caught up, see this post and you’ll pretty much be up to speed. We didn’t have to wait very long after we arrived to be seen.

Gavin was however, very…….um…..talkative. Honestly, he just would not stop talking and it was mostly random, unrelated thoughts. When we met with the pediatric neurologist, she didn’t seem to know why we were there. I was a bit confused by that but she was very interested so everything was okay there.

We went over Gavin’s entire life. That was quite overwhelming because Gavin’s history is very complex and confusing. Basically, everything that the doctor wanted to perform, as far as diagnostic tests are concerned, has already been done, in some cases multiple times. The only remarkable finding was reduced electrical activity of the left temporal lobe.

Keep in mind that she is a world class pediatric neurologist and she essentially said that she has absolutely no idea what’s going on with him. She said that saying Gavin is extremely complex is an understatement. Essentially, because we have been so diligent over the years and in leaving no stone unturned, she’s not sure what else there is to do.

Childhood disintegrative disorder: Familiar Faces

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After we went over the bastardized version of his medical history we were able to put together on short notice she physically examined him. This is were the concern comes in. 

I’m just going to cut to the chase….. I don’t have anything left for anymore details right now.

Basically, upon examination she discovered that Gavin has no reflexes anymore. She actually pulled another doctor into the room. It just happened to be Dr. G, Gavin’s movement disorder specialist (also a pediatric neurologist) from earlier in the year. This actually worked out well because it gave us a baseline from about 7 months ago. 

He re-examined Gavin, and confirmed that he has no reflexes….at all. He also confirmed that they were present this past January. Just so that I’m clear, he has no upper extremity or lower extremity reflexes…period. 

I ask the obvious question, what does this mean? She said that it could be some sort of peripheral neuropathy. She said it could also be a neurological disease, or even maybe a muscular disorder. Either way, this is not good news. This could also explain why Gavin is appearing to be becoming more and more clumsy…for lack of a better word. He is constantly dropping things anymore and tripping over his own feet.

She is going to be conferring with her colleagues over the next few days and will contact us before this Friday and hopefully have some answers or a least a direction for us to go in. She said that, unfortunately, sometimes we can’t isolate the problem and it will remain a mystery.

WTF, WTF, WTF…….Yup..That About Sums Things Up

WTF, is all I can say right now. WTF, WTF, WTF……. Honestly, what are the odds that this would actually happen.  We went up there for childhood disintegrative disorder and not only walked away with more questions then we had to start with but now we are looking at some type of neurological disease or neuromuscular disorder as well…..and we still don’t know about the whole childhood disintegrative disorder thing either.  WTF, WTFWTF…………..yup..that about sums it up.

It’s times like this that I question if I have what it takes to do this. I’ll be completely honest with you and please pardon my French. This absolutely scares the shit out of me. How are we supposed to help him? OMG….my head is going to explode……. This is going to be the longest week of my life. We have way to much going on right now already and this will likely be bumped to a top priority, followed closely by locating a school for Elliott and a school for Emmett….before August.

 

Thank you everyone for all the emails and support. I would ask that you please keep my family, especially Gavin in your prayers.

 

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Jun 29 2011

For the record….

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I may be stressed out and that’s an understatement but I just want to say that the typos are a result of blogging mostly from my phone. This blog is done “almost” entirely from my Nexus S 4G Android smartphone by Samsung. The problem is the dang auto-correct. It’s…how shall I put this…ummmmm…..less then accurate at times. So while I may be a bit out of it, I not babbling incoherently over here….at least not yet :-)

I try to catch these things as they happen but some of the words are changed after I type the intended word out and move on. Smartphone are convenient but not perfect. There….I feel better having explained that. ;-)

 

 

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